Y'know what? I think I am going to study with my friends mom. Even if she's scary. I might need a little intimidation to help me progress spiritually. I mean, my last teacher was a bit too intimidating. She would never joke or anything and took things way too seriously. I don't know, she made me so nervous I overthought everything and ended up confusing myself overall ;> A> but...I mean, that was like 2008. When I'd met Kita and when on that cruise with her. I'm a lot different from when I was 15 ;>> justsayin'

ffffff- I do need to study with someone, and she's my friend's mom, so I'll get to spend more time with her and stuff. I think it'll just benefit me a lot.

My mom had suggested me to study with another one of my friends...but I don't know, I don't think we'd be good study buddies. Idek D8 I don't think she'd be up to it anyway. asdjfkl; so...

yeah ||OTL

I'm watching Anastasia for the first time in forever. I think the last time I watched it I still lived with my dad, and still had a TV in my room with DirecTV (it got moved down to the living room when I got my computer xD; ). And that was...when I was 11, maybe? Why is this soundtrack so catchy ffffff

I still think it's the best disney movie :c Or atleast one of the best.
Omg but it's way different when you actually understand what's going on. I laughed when I saw the red guards or whoever ;orz and those random girls she dances with are her sisters, and they added in Rasputin falling into ice cold water (which is how he died (after being shot a million times) (and after being poisoned)) Oh but you guys already know all this :')

ano~ I think I have about $35+ dollars saved up so far. For...any upcoming thing that requires money o_o; Hopefully It'll be for either A2F or Bishie-con. I don't know. I'm lazy okay.



LOOK BEHIND YOU AMERICAAAA DD8 russia will eat you. and that pipe hurts.

oh, and Russia is the only one that can stand up without his stand e3e; France is being troublesome. I had to stab his back with the stick and then force him upright. ATM he's doing fine. Germany and South Italy came with their heads on each other's bodies o___O; I was like "Germany...is holding a tomato....something is wrong here =A=;;" so yeah. I popped their heads off and put them on right. Glad they went back on OTL

But yeah I'm happy. Germany has a head injury (a few scuff marks .3.;) we can say he got that from WWII. BUT BESIDES THAT I'M HAPPY derpppp

I left North Italy on my mom's bathroom counter so she'll see it in the morning when she's getting ready for work and maybe cheer her up since Tuesdays usually aren't nice to her >A>; so...da that's all I can do to help besides chores and schoolwork xD;;;

Woah this movie just reminded me of harry potter o____O;

Coffee.

~Fogo

~Mood: fdal;jlda
~Hears: Ayumi Hamasaki - Evolution (Live)


Uhhh...

-16

I have no idea how I did that. I highly doubt all the ice cream and spaghetti had something to do with it. Or the Mountain Dew. Actually when I weighed myself first it said -17 but I was so shocked i had to weigh myself again. Man I should've just walked away so today I could be thinking I really did lose -17 D<
fffffffffff-

I might get to see The Birthday Massacre live. CB Fogo be mega happy. I also really wanna see We Are The Fallen, too. They look like they'd be amazing in concert o3o orzzz...

A-Also...Commissions are open. No one will probably see this, but I plan on adding a DA journal with all the details once i'm brave enough to.
Traditional:
Sketch (bust) ~ $5
Sketch (full bod.) ~ $10
Inked ~ $15
Inked + Colored ~ $20

=A=; et Digital:
Sketch (bust) ~ $6
Sketch (full bod.) ~ $15
Lineart ~ $20
Lineart + Colored ~ $30

I can be reasonable. Some times. Also also, you might think 'Okay, digital art is actually a bit easier than traditional, because it has an UNDO button'.
But I'm not as practiced in sketching in Photoshop. Also, with photoshop, I'm able to give pictures more vibrant, in depth backgrounds whereas traditionally, my art tools are limited .3.;

But i mean hey :D and chibis are $3

//srs face


and why does 4chan keep saying i'm banned ._. it says I spammed their boards. xD wtf
Pretty sure I didn't excessively spam any of their boards. Or ever even POST on any of their boards. What is this i don't even

i bet this is a joke =w=

anyway

I don't think I have anything else to say. Except that when I was five I ate a pebble from the playground during nap time in school. I can't remember if I did it because my friend did it, or if it was because she drew on her tooth with a pencil and I wanted to be as hardcore as her.what
whatev >8U

you get no loffs
~Fogo

I'll follow you softly
When I whisper it gently
You will see I've all your
Troubles on my mind
I'll be watching you closely
Like a shadow on rose leaf
You will see I've all your
Troubles on my mind
~Bertine Zetlitz - Let Armies Loose

How come all of the stalkerish songs are the best ones what like, for real.

Omg, that's going to be my new playlist when I update it next D< All stalkerish songs. Tigerlily, Let armies loose, Super Girl...yesssss

Like, seriously. Have you ever read the lyrics to Super Girl by Super Junior? I haven't read a translation, so I went by the Chinese lyrics. Talk about possessive stalker much.

I'm done.

How do i find all these songs anyway.

Sometimes I just feel like locking myself in a dark room and not coming out for hours. It's like how starving can feel so pleasant, until you remember you're hungry, then it's kind of a nagging voice in the back of your head that you sort of maybe want to listen to, but even if you do there's nothing in there anyway.
except for salads. I make awesome salads. And chicken, there's that too. Except...It's chicken :/ and you have that like every night when you're poor, except when you don't, and more often than not it has over 20 carbs. pffftt.

OH! I watched the first two episodes of Kuroshitsuji II yesterday. I was actually pretty impressed. Alois and Claude are pretty well developed, whereas I was thinking "ffff monoshitsuji they pulled that out of their a-". I think myself plus everyone else was thinking it would have nothing to do with the previous season, but Ciel and Sebastian are in it =O It...made me really happy to see those two. I have no idea why. I've never even really liked Sebastian all that much, but then it's like SAVIOR!
I don't know, everyone calls Ciel a spoiled little moody brat, but I've always thought he was just...well, obviously spoiled :| but generally misunderstood. For a main character, I really like him. <--- has never given Kuroshitsuji characters much thought till now.
Maybe I'm just biased. Oh, I liked the new maid, Hanna(h) so far, as well. Someone on the Mangabullet forum for Kuroshitsuji said they're cosplaying as her (so early, right?). Surprised, but then not surprised they have a darker skinned character now. Because, I mean Lao is Chinese, then Sohma is Indian, Sebastian's a freak, Ciel is English...y'know? asdljk;

Yeah, but the second episode of Kuroshitsuji II made me LOL. It was pretty funny. Oh, but this doesn't mean the first season is safe to watch. DON'T WATCH IT.
But in the end we all wanna have a d'awwwwwwww moment when THEY ADMIT THEY LOVE EACH OTHER AND GET MARRIED AND HAVE BABIES. Yeah, speaking of being scarred for life. :/

I got home with the sewing patterns and went lolwut. then i cleaned off the table and moved it out of the middle of my room because I'm going to use it again soon-ish but I also want to move it back out but then not. Yeah. Ponies.

~Hears: S.H.E - Wo Ai Ni
HELLO HUMANS.

yes i know that's quoted wrong pfffft.

I'm such a loser. I get updates from twitter now. It makes me so happy OAO

All of the sudden my text message chime is a very happy one. Not one that makes me think "ughpeople"

also also: COFFEEEEEEEEEE. COFFEEE~!!! i has cup right nao y'all i be so happay 83

And maybe a Chinese take-out box. I'm too scared to wonder how many carbs are in it but I'm too hungry to put it up. We have nothing in this house TTATT like for real, nothing.



Fweeeeeeeeee~ //slapself
L-lawl I think I'm the only one who obsessively changes her entire desktop theme like every other day. I'm turning into one of those people who freak out over trying to make her clothes and purse match, only in Nerd version. I think you need to upgrade your Fogo to 11.0. 10.9 just isn't cutting it.
THEY'RE ALMOST TRANSFORMERS
kesese //punched



LOOK IT'S JAPAN only now i need a bigger monitor fffffffff
he smiles and blushes and stuff. and when you click him he introduces himself. "Konnichiwa, Nihon desu"
....//punchself for good measure

oh hey the ONE DAY i want to actually read the daily text i find my mom stole mine =A=; THANKS MUM I LOFF YOU TOO D;

a-and I want my one coins now. right nooow. :c don't they know how much happiness they'll bring me. Russia will get to sit right next to the little cow on top of my sewing machine.

Speaking of happiness, Russia, and cows -- I'll be updating Liediut soon ;>3 > I suppose. I don't have much to show you guys, but I will. I think I tried to draw Amora again last night at 3 AM. lmao;;;;

But we'll see how this all turns out. Maybe then I wont be so suspicious like I am with that Amaryllis picture why is his hair blue, dear god almighty D8


IMUSTGO


~FOGO

I got a new playlist :/

I was all "It will only be songs that really mean something to me"
Then I could only think of like, two songs.
So then I thought "It will be all celtic metal"
I was sick of all my celtic metal songs :U

So i winged it. whatev. these are songs I really like


1. Alizèe - L'Alize
French / Gourmandises
  'J'embrasse toute une armée
  De rêves et de bleuets,
  Me plonger dedans
  Je sais ce que je sais
  Même si j'pleure tout l'temps
  Alors, dis'

2. Jüli - Ein Neuer Tag
German / Ein Neuer Tag
 'Ein neuer Tag beginnt
 Es fängt von vorne an
 Ich lasse es hinter mir
 Lass los, was ich nicht ändern kann
 Ein neuer Tag beginnt
 Ein Tag wie frischer Schnee
 Ich hab noch nichts kaputt gemacht'

3. Flyleaf - Arise
English / Memento Mori
 'There's snow on your face
  And your razor blade
  The twilight is bruised
  And there you lie
  Arise, and be
  All that you dreamed'

4. URBAN SYMPHONY - Paikese Poole
Estonian / Päikese Poole
 'Ta kõnnib mööda köit,
  Kahe pilvelõhkuja vahel.
  Kergel sammul läheb,
  Kui kõnniks lihtsalt mööda teed'

5. Lena Park - Plastic Flower
Korean / Op. 4
 'Juwie saramdul jagi il anirago nomu
  Shwibge marhago
  Gunyang shidodo anhebogo pogihanya
  Nollyodene
  Na jashindo jongmal mollasso iron il
  Nege senggil goshiragon'

6. S.H.E - Tian Liang Le
Chinese / FM S.H.E
 'Nĭ yī bian wŏ yī bian,
 Wŏ mēn de shì jié zuì hăo bù zai chōng dié
 Yĕ bié zai huì xiăng nà taì chāng taì chāng de zŭo tiān
 Taì dúo aí taì dúo lēi biè zai zhè yăng láng fēi'

7. Origa - Kawa yo, Watashi No Kawa Yo
Russian / Aria
 ' Teceshi recka ne kolyxneshisja
  Na krutoj bereg ne vzoliyoshisja
  Na krutoj bereg ne vzoliyoshisja
  Zheltym peskom ne vozmutiŝisja'

8. Tsukiko Amano - Ryuu
Japanese / Tenryuu
 'Me wo tojite
  Mitakunai mono nado minakute ii kara
  Iikikasete kokoro o sogiotoshita
  Me wo tojite
  Surudoku naru karada de ryouashi de
  Kono te ni najimu buki wo atsumeta'

9. Arai Akino - Voices
Japanese / Sora No Mori
 'Futatsume no kotoba wa kaze
 Yukute wo oshiete
 Kamisama no ude no naka e
 Tsubasa wo aoru no'

10. KOKIA - Chouwa Oto ~ With Reflection
Backwards Japanese /Trip Trip
   '3. 25. 15. 21. 23. 1
  Rurekuteshieka wokitonakayadaonirokokonoshi tawa
  Tai tsuwazadekazushiteshisokunamae
  Tahatookumeshihi nirimonoko'

11. KOKIA - Ningen Tte Sonna Mono Ne
Japanese / Trip Trip
 'Kakko tsukeru no wa tsukareta desho?
 Angai daremo ki ni shite nai yo
 Meiwaku wo kakeru no wa iya da nante
 Hitori de aruite kita tsumori na no?'


Most of these have translations, too :/ so whatever. I'm lazy.


Nyaaaaaaaaaaa~

You know what I realized today?

I'm not shy about IMing people, I only think it makes me look like a friendless retard who has nothing better to do if I IM them every single time. I have no problem IMing people.
In real life? I'm paranoid of walking up to my friends. Even if I've known them for oh, five years. I get scared that I'm annoying them or that they're sick of me, even if I don't get any vibes. I dunno, it's strange. It scared me that I have this problem so much, I almost turn into one of those people who will walk right past you and not look or say anything to you even if you've known them for five years. ;_____;'

NO, but the thing I realized today also was that all of my friends have younger siblings to walk around with.
I don't.
I have to get up all by myself shy, stupid self and take an initiative. Why am I so bad at this? I think it's my confidence. But that's why I started this diet in the first place ||OTL. It's not a figure change it's a lifestyle change. The clothes I wore today fit a lot looser than they did back a few months ago, and they looked fine if I didn't even touch them, but I still felt like I hadn't lost any weight and kept pulling my shirt down or trying to hide myself under a jacket. I have issues. Blah blah blah.

Why do I think everyone hates me. I mean, I don't think everyone hates me...so I guess I mean I feel like everyone hates me. I don't know, it's hard to describe what I think or feel. This sandwich is gross.

I don't know, starting now, or starting next year, I want to be awesome. I want to be the best me I can possibly be. I want to be spiritual, I want to be artistically confident, I want to be happy with the way I look, and dependable, and a better friend. I want to set myself in the direction that will benefit me and those around me the most.

And all that upbuilding nonsense. Where's the cheetos, I'm hungry.

I got me dot today :c at least it was after the assembly.

I should probably eat, but I'm not all that hungry.

Can you believe I forgot I ordered those hetalia one coins? xD I forget about them, and once I remember I get uber excited over them. TEEHEE

...And...I have money to save up.


~Fogooo