my german in the title of this post is amazing amirite.

New video up!




yeah ikr pretty amazing.  I sound so retarded xD  it was like 3AM anyway so whatev. I am dreading what all this pocky is going to do to me @____@;

And i keep forgetting this window is open. hurrrr.

I got all my manga back! I really should get all back into manga again, blog. I feel like animanga doesn't have as much of an impact on me now as it has in the past.  I dunno, my art is way out of wack. I'm not sure if I'm being as true to myself as I think I am when I draw. It's easy to slip into a generic anime style that you know more people will like, rather than your own original style. Have I already said this? Well, it's true. So I don't know if it should be the satisfying equivilant of slamming my head against the wall. I'm sure it was at one point. I don't draw what I feel though. I don't. And I think this is where my creativity is sapped, because... If I'm not drawing what I'm feeling, then I don't know what to draw. It's like trying to describe someone you've never met before. So when it comes down to it, when I'm not true to myself, the person on the paper is just a person to me. It's confusing Dx


 I am so sick of this one person...well lots of other people, but especially this person. They are one of the weirdest people I've ever met. You know I usually have no problem figuring people out and warming up to them, so this, ah, oroka na baka, is special, and instead of getting my head bitten off when I try to have a sympathetic conversation with them, I would rather tear their head off and play soccer with it. So that is that, and Fogo doesn't take crap.

Erm, so... I've been having headaches and it's annoying. i don't know what my deal is.

ummmm...so yeah this pretty much took me all day to write. Sorry blog...


~Fogo

For real. It's like HI I'M NEW BE NICE K? My sister keeps telling me I should get out more because I think too much. I told her people who don't think much usually have no depth. This was all because I said I didn't like it when the clock hits (number) : 58. Because it's one of those numbers where its almost a another hour, but it's a longer wait than 59...so you can all see how this would frustrate me, right? Right?

I've been feeling so nauseous lately. It's probably just allergies, but I can hardly sleep without feeling like I'm going to vomit. I was planning on getting a lot of sleep in today since I need it, but I woke up early and I could not go back to bed. It's rainy outside too, perfect weather for laying in bed, right? *groan* and I have like 3 exams to take and 2 essays and gsbglsdkfjaslfksd;

I was trying to draw a comic last night, but then I remembered how hard it is to draw comics and then Himaruya became a hero to me again. HURRRR. It's supposed to be funny, so we'll see how funny it comes out :/  its the one where she brings her tea and yeah yeah =A=
I hate children.

Anyway, Sam might get another job so she'll be working during the day time and I'll get time by myself! yayyyy!!! I love having the house to myself 8D
Also it's not good for me and my sister to be together for long periods of time. We don't tolerate each other very much. because she's an oversensitive, controlling wench. 

But anyhoodle.  I know my blogs have been looking pretty sad, I'll get to them, ja? Also...stupid bare walls...ffff


~Fogo

But I might have a summer job  :'D

Hey look, facial soap works!

<--- is trying to not make expressions so the crease on the bridge of her nose will go away.
<--- glares/scowls when she studies. or checks the mail. or cleans. or draws. or breathes.

~Fogo

and the sand is black.

Hello! I know you guys REALLY wanted me to update, so I will.

erm....

Today I woke up with a HORRIBLE headache, which unfortunately lasted pretty much all day and was really annoying -- but also kind of weird because I never get headaches. Went to the laundromat because our washer is broekn (x10 broken) so had fun sitting in the car reading A Series Of Unfortunate Events. I'm almost finished with book 9, yay! There was this Asian guy (Laundromat's owned by Asians. hurrr theres so many...) who came out and sat on the bench outside and I almost felt like taking a picture of him (no stalker tendencies here) just to make one of my friends happy 8'/ but then I couldn't really figure out if he was cute or ugly, and then I remembered she likes Koreans and he was Chinese, so it was sort of  [ AWKWARD MOMENT WHERE I JUST WATCH THIS POOR INNOCENT ASIAN ]

I should've gotten a picture. There was this tiny little spider that kept climbing down on his web in my (open) window in the car, and I kept blowing on him to make him climb back up and everyone kept looking at me weird like maybe they thought I was smoking an invisible cigarette or something. Pffft.

What makes me mad is the band KidneyThieves. I really liked this band when I heard their song Before I'm Dead, which was the first song I heard of them back in, oh, 2004? But like now their style is COMPLETELY different. It went from grunge-alternative to slow-ballady-pop crap and it's just awful. I recommend you go listen to that song then listen to their other stuff, it's like such a bad contrast.

BUT LIKE I WAS SAYING. Samantha kept complaining about getting car sick and nyaaaa so she had to sit in the front seat. Whatever. I like the back seat anyway I don't get bothered as much. And lately she just keeps picking and picking trying to get into an argument then blaming it on me like I'm some horrible person. I must say, if you're an older sibling, you should understand how much of an affect you have on your younger siblings and that you should make all the right choices and become a responsible, reliable, mature adult. Because its &* miserable living with an idiot older sister, PERIOD.
If my other idiot sister decides she's going to move in, I am moving OUT. And they are getting no help from me for THEIR mistakes. They can take care of their own kids and study for their GEDs and get their own jobs and finally GROW UP by themselves. I feel bad for my mother for having such stupid children.

Oh...Anyway...
Returned some clothes that were too ugly to wear in public to the store...Mom went by herself so, yeah.
We went to mom's work 'cause she wanted to get some stuff done before the week started, so I got to file charts all day. People have some crazy names :/ the Keurig coffee is good, though, if that's even its right name xD da I had...I can't remember what I had but it was good :D I had three stacks of files and I was just getting to the Fs when mom finally gave in 'cause Sam was complaining so much -- though I was kind of feeling sick because I hadn't eaten and it was about 4PM. So we had Baco Tell and returned the rental car and came hoooome.

I got two new dresses for the assembly. The one I wore to the convention  is black with hot pink flowery-things all near the bottom and frilly-ish sleeves and a low, square collar xD;; it brushed nearly over the top of my knees and I was showing my arms and I felt so uncomfortable in it, even though people kept saying I looked really pretty. I was showing too much skin to my liking :/

I was with Ashley all morning so everytime we were with someone we would get a group hug instead of one each xD it was funny. We were walking around and we'd just gone through the door way into the hallway from the main auditorium and this guy randomly asked me what my name was :/ I told him and he was just like "Oh...well...it was nice meeting you..." then he acted all embarrassed or something and looked away and I turned back to Ashley to give her a weirded out look and she blurted "Aww I wish I had people randomly say hello to me!" OTL

Ummm~ lessee... I think that's about it atm. I'll update Liediut super soon, da~ but first lemme draw something x_____o; My drawing list is simply getting longer and longer and I feel like there are not enough hours in a day. So I end up not going to sleep until like 3AM and then I wake up semi-early and these dark circles under my eyes wont go awaaaay. So I keep telling myself to get more sleep or at least take a nap but I don't want to ;A; and all this make-up is aging me... so I didn't wear any today but I look like a mess. And Chiquita called me the other day but I was outside and had left my phone in my room so I didn't answer it. I wonder if she'd meant to call me to tell me something or if it'd been an accident.

THERE ARE TWO POSTERS I WANT FROM WALMART.
THE ONE OF MADHATTERS FACE
AND THE ONE OF KINGDOM HEARTS II
i want them so bad, you guys, so bad. so, so, so bad but I don't want to spend my money on them because I'm supposed to be saving up for a computer and IT HUUUUURTSSSS. MY PENNY PINCHING IS KILLING ME. Maybe next time I'll just squeeze my eyes shut and pay for them like that. Maybe it wont hurt as much.
augh.


Love~
 ~Fogo

if i don't reply, that means you said something unworthy of one.

if i keep making sarcastic remarks, it means i'm angry

and if i walk away, it means i'm offended.

Overall, I really hate people.

ugh okay but I get internet back tomorrow hallelujah (or not?) this phone is devil spawn. I like not having internet in a way, like I'm so bored I guess I'll do work ' kind of way. lots of art and finishing up a school subject for good. whoo hoo. i was at the library the other day and this mexican guy who was talking on the phone kept smiling at me. it was frustrating. is it bad that I'm afraid of dragonflies? whatev ihatebugs. and we all know i avoid confrontation by ignoring people so, like, AUGH?

~Fogo

We have a shepherding call tomorrow too. this one place has cute dresses in so i ws gonna see if i could get sth. itching to go out in field service TAT;

Today I've officially lost 10 lbs. yay! and I'm a lil sunburned. not bad though and its already fading. I freckled >A>
im excited abt the con! what to wear...