~mood meh. sleepy?
~music lady gaga - kaboom


Okay...I'm expecting this post to be short.

Right now I'm working on a new icon for LF, but I'm not sure if it's turning out good or bad yet. I was going to rotate it so it's at an angle but...orz we'll see how it comes out. Oh, and it's a man. Hurrrr.
this is crazy I used to never ever draw guys. Now they're all I draw. This is strange. why do I do this D;

Okay, so today I planned for cosplaying as Belarus for Kawa Kon 2011. I have lots of preparations to do, so wish me luckkkk. So...no soda starting today, anyone? (and a whole buncha other stuffs)
But it's gonna be a lot of fun~ and maybe before then I can also get my own Boko costume done. hurrr 8D

ummm~ hmm...

Oh~ I was talking with a friend the other day. We were just talking about stuff and whatnot and got on the topic of abusive people and how it's hard to describe them and how most people just completely don't get it. Like it's easy to describe some of the physical, but most of it is mentally and emotionally, so it makes it really difficult because you never heal from abuse like that, and you feel a certain way about things and you have no idea why, and we agreed that it makes you feel like you aren't even human, like you're diseased and something is horribly wrong with you.  Of course I can look in the mirror and see myself as I am, but mentally it's a completely different story. And what really got to me was that she said most people try to overlook the fact that you've been abused or you have an abusive person in your life because they don't want the responsibility or weight of knowing it and having to deal with it. And I know it is kind of a responsibility to know something like that, and it isn't something you go around telling everyone (like some people I know). But what really hurt was to realize how true it is. Some of my closest friends know and still they would say "Oh and your dad is doing really good spiritually and with making the meetings," and "I heard your parents got separated but I really can't say I'm sorry about it."  Or "You're so mean to your dad, why didn't you answer when he called? How come you never text him back?"
So even though they can't understand or have sympathy, it's...

...upsetting to think about.


Anyway. I'll just finish my tea and ninjapoof. Have a good weeek~ hopefully there won't be any tornadoes.............*sigh*


~Fogo