MOOD~  happy / regretful
INTAKE~  Soup + earl grey
MUSIC~  Blackmore's Night - Loreley

Hi!
I feel like I haven't blogged in forever. I think I typed up a couple of drafts, but never actually posted anything.
Or maybe I'm lying again :"D

Oh my geez, this guy has BIG TEETH D8! It's like a whole screen of white or something. Anyway...
*hops* uru uru uru

Unsuccessful material shopping trip was unsuccessful! Woe is me. Don't you hate it when people say something someone said was 'gay'? It's like, when I think of someone saying something that's considered 'gay' to someone, I think of the grown men who act in children shows. I don't know. And the color pink.
I always wondered why using the word 'gay' instead of 'stupid' bothered people, but you know, lately I'm finding it rather irksome.
If that slang became so ginormously popular, then, do you think, people all around the world would start saying 'yaoi' for homosexuals? Or do you think this generation would regress back to using the proper words for everything and calling homosexuals homosexuals?
Though I don't think regress is the right word for it. Upgrade, maybe? Regress for progress' sake? I had a friend who lives in the UK and she only told me, after the 1500th time I'd said it, to please stop saying 'whats up' because she didn't understand what it meant.

I forgot how much I love Eilera. They are one good band, you know?

Anyhoodle. I finally bought the Hitchhikers Guide To the Galaxy. The book, not the movie. It's really hilarious. It's really hard for books to make me laugh, so I'd say this one's a real winner :") I really liked how Alan Rickman voiced Marvin in the movie. It made my day. Alan Rickman REALLY doesn't play parts that suit him, though, like Sweeney Todd and apparently in the upcoming Alice in Wonderland movie, he's supposed to play a caterpillar. Eeek, right? So I think Marvin was really good for his voice. They fit, da?
Man come on a caterpillar.
honestly.

That movie DOES look like a masterpiece though. Johnny Depp just looks amazing *3*
His eyebrows are really out there.

Speaking of really being out there, WHY DOES EVERYONE KEEP SAYING AVATAR WAS REALLY GOOD? Okay it looks like one of those beefcake comic-book movies like Wolverine or Spiderman or something. Looks totally unappealing to me, really. I don't want to pay just to watch a bunch of blue people run around make more blue people or whatever .________.
I really wanna see Avatar: The Last Airbender's movie, though. I hope it's not like Dragonball Evolution, though, because that was an epic fail on multiple levels. In the general opinion. I must speak for everyone, because whoever disagrees really must have bad taste.
I just said one of my best friend's has really bad taste. OOPS.

But so, I need a new foot-thing for my sewing machine because it's faulty. It doesn't like me to use it.
d'aw.
sarks.

And Yeah, I'll take Audrey's word for it and plaster my walls with my own artwork. Maybe tear out a few more pages of over stuffs. But still make room for posters. There was a lot of cute pictures at hobby lobby. it made me mad x_o;

*winding down*

I have nothing to say. I'm tired. Steph and Lindsey walked right past me today without even saying anything, which I mean is to be expected because they are uber snooty, but I mean even Tess, from Texarkana who I think I've talked to ONCE, spoke with me and gave me a hug and stuff. So did everyone else. Why does this make me so mad? Why does everyone make me feel like I'm the only one who thinks that family has no personality?
And how come all the elders keep giving all my friends hugs and pats on the backs when they don't even look at me? what's wrong with me? I don't get it! I hate people, and I suppose I'm not all that bothered by it, but it still got on my nerves.
You know, you can be unsure about whose side you're on, if the parents are divorced. You can be neutral and be nice to either one of them WITHOUT HAVING AN ACCUSING AIR.
THIS IS WHERE I GET ANGRY AND TEAR SOMEONE'S EYES OUT.

O but I wasn't mad. I was fine today :") yummy tea~~ x3

hammer the anger dooooown~

But yeah. And she's just like her older sister, so it doesn't matter. It really doesn't. end of my people rant.
because people are people and you know what i'm going to be sitting some where drinking my coffee reading a book and petting my sleeping dog and thinking "You know what, I remember those two girls I used to hang out with. They were so snobby. Hmm~" and that will absolutely be the end of it.

I'd try drawing right now but I'd just manage to mash a pencil through the book. So all in all, I think this had better end now.

We never went to the asian store :C


 ~Fogo

MOOD~  Sleepy, delirious, dramatic
INTAKE~  WHERES MY TEA?
MUSIC~  MELL - Repeat (Deep Forest Remix)

Oi~ so I updated my music player!
Most of the videos are from youtube so I'm expecting them to get deleted quickly and have to re-update my playlist again. Repeat this about five times until I give up. Ahhh welll~ hope you get a good listen out of it before so.

I've started watching Lucky Star. I'd tried to read it and watch it before, but I wasn't really interested. I couldn't get into it, but I'm just now on Episode 2 and it's so cuuuuuute ;3; it makes me laugh, too, because it's like, you can totally relate to some of the stuff that goes on and it's kinda innocent and stuff xDD
I'm like~ this is the anime you watch when you want wholesome entertainment for real 8D

I'm going material shopping this weekend! I can't waaaait~ I hope I find all the right materials! I might have to stitch some of the designs on myself, but that'll be okay. As long as it looks cool in the end. The only thing I think I won't be able to find is the skirt design. I tried to google image search when I was trying to perfect the sketch and it was all "WTF?" soooo~ it shows how good of a chance I have :/

I...I'm gonna have to make some of the jewelry too. And I think it's really convenient that that really cheap jewelry store just opened up too WAHA! I can get some stuff from there. I love love love accessories but i hate spending money on them with a passion! It's like torture for me to spend money.

Anyway, decided this. The left stocking I'll be wearing will be a whole color with the chinese character for death printed on it. I'll decide the colors for that, probably purple with the character in silver or something, and the other stocking will be white or off-white. A light color to contrast against all the dark :D 'cause the boots are gonna be black and...hmmm
I'm sure it'll all come together lovely, though. Most of the things I don't plan, do?
It's just like writing fanfiction neee~ remember when I had like 8 of those going?

And I'll either have to stop biting my nails or get a manicure, because in the sketch (or original fanart, with both me and kita in it) I had sharp red nails, soooo~ this'll be fun 8"D
I'm still not sure if I'm gonna get platform boots. Those look sort of really weird to me sometimes...Maybe I'll just get stiletto boots, 'cause those are really cute...IDK IDK IDK.

ALMOST DONE WITH MIDTERMS YAY! holy crap they're killing me 8C it's deeeath.School stresses me out so much it's not even funny. It's probably the reason my hair is like falling out.  OH SPEAKING OF SAYING LIKE
Poland's voice is too manly! They should've made a woman voice himmmmmm D; it's alll wroonnggg!
I guess I'll get used to it but meanwhile I'm still not happy about it.

FWEEEEEE I wanna watch the new HP movie over and over againnnnn~ it's awesomeness yo. I hate that a lot of it is about teenage romance, but I raelly like it. I think this one and the fourth are the best ones so far. I totally can't wait for the two last movies!
I'm going by myself though because people talking during movies annoys me.

READ THE BOOKS. OMG. If I hear one more "It was horrible. You couldn't even follow what was going on and it didn't make any sense" I'm going to throttle someone.

fff you guys my entire family is on facebook. This isn't funny. Hailie is freaking beautiful and Victoria looks picture perfect and and I feel like the ugliest person in the world OTL
 {UGLY DUCKLING}

B-but a-a-a-anyw-way

 people keep calling her amazing and smart and awesome and SINCE WHEN HAS SOMEONE SAID I WAS AMAZING AND SMART? TAT I-I CAN SPEAK FOUR LANGUAGES AND I MAKE STRAIGHT A'S AND I'M ARTISTICALLY INCLINED AND I CAN CODE WEBSITES AND AND....
i hate life ;_______________;
  [/ suck it up ]

anyway.
Does anyone like Chai white tea? Because I really don't. So if you want some, you can have it. I think I've used 2 tea bags.


OTL

~ boko

HOLY SH~YOU GUYS.

MOOD~  Musical, epic (LOL)
INTAKE~  Coffee
MUSIC~  Epica - Kingdom Of Heaven

Hi! I've calmed down a bit, so here's an update that actually makes sense.


.006


The truth lingers quietly
Sprouting from the rotten floorboards
Listening to you deny your fantasies
While the world you've created
Shines bright in a diseased reality
Marring your castle walls
And doubtlessly
You portray stubborness at its best

Beneath the ice, above the broken
The dull cry of salvation flutters
Just out of reach, relentlessly paining
Those who can't admit error
Let us be blindfolded, because that is
All we are ever good for
Gag us, because
Our words tear even ourselves apart

Personally, we conduct a cacophony
Of a bloody ending lasting for an eternity
Our lives set alight, screaming our sins
As roses bloom golden
And the sky presses down on us
Just in case, I've written in vain
Because only my hopes could be forgotten
In seconds after our last confinement.
--

There's another. I know, my poetry all sounds the same :/ I just feel sappy if I write about love (i don't have any of that stuff, anyway), vulgar if I write something angry and revenge-y, or anti-christian if its a bit too...vivid.
I was planning on changing my style up a bit, so we'll see how that goes, ne?

Holy crap this coffee is good. Of course everything tastes better at nearly 3AM. Everything sounds better, too. It's like you're immediately hyper-sensitive if you stay up after your bedtime xD normal people! I feel awesome. I used to stay up till 6AM every single night, but now I'm...old. Just old. In 4 years I'll be 20. I feel like a preteen instead of a middle/late teen. This is so strange. Where did my years go?
HONESTLY?

I want them back k. I hate change. I hate it. I mean, new music and trying a different style is okay, but major changes like moving out or getting a job makes me really really nervous and pessimistic. I have to take deep breaths and drink green tea and stuff. I hate it xD

A few minutes ago sam texted me, okay this is what happened.
Sam: Hey!
Fogo: *doesn't reply. too busy drawing*
Sam: I ran over a dog today
Fogo: What?
Sam: Gotcha! I hate it when you ignore me.
Fogo: *ignores her*

SHE ASKED FOR IT. That was mean. She never has anything to talk about anyway, she's just bored at work. .___. I feel bad for that imaginary dog she hit.

AND ASHLEY STOP TEXTING ME AT 6AM LKFDJSA;FLKJDAS;FKLDJSA;FLKSDJA
OH MY GOD. LIKE SERIOUSLY. IT IS LIKE 6 DEGREES AND YOU WANT ME TO GET UP AND GET MY CELLPHONE just so you can tell me you're sick and you don't have school today. it makes me want to cry.

O and I'ma brag about LMAO Lady Gaga. I like free too. OH wait. Yeah
I was gonna brag about how good of a cook my mom is. She made hamburger soup and fruit salad today lfkdaj;fa
;ldskaj;sldjkfal;sdkfjsa
djflks;ajf;sdlkajfl;sdkjfsda
in that order. it's awesomenesssness
She got the fruit salad recipe from a Pakistani doctor she worked with, and apparently they gave it to the people who'd been out in the desert who're dehydrated, because it's really hydrating. It has orange juice in it.
And okay no one can deny her soup tops everything else. Only thing is I'm going to gain so much weight from all this OTL OTL OTL OTL and those two cakes in there, and that turkey.
I was talking about losing weight, earlier, because I was expaining my costume to mom and I said "I have to lose weight to wear a skirt like that though because my legs are gbsgbsbgsbgs" and she was all "You can wear a skirt like that no matter what you look like! D8!" and so after all this food is gone......
I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do. This sucks. This coffee is really good. Hey i used sweetener, does that count?
I wish I had more self-discipline. I can do the chores on my own, and my schoolwork, but everything else is kind of...wonky. You can tell too, the house will be clean and my room will be a wreck x"D
I just avoid the Wrath of Mom, I think.
Hmm...

OH! I have 100$ saved up for the anime con so far! yaaay! Way better than last time, I only had 15$ after I paid to get in, and this time mom said she'd pay for me to get in, and I'd cover whatever I wanted. This is awesoooome! I'm so proud of me. Good job Fogo.


Anyhoodles. Marukaite Chikyuu. It was cold today ne. I wish I had more warm clothes OTL I'm sleeping with like 4 blankets yo. it aint nice.

Aaaaaand bad picture is bad, but heres what I've done on I'm-not-actually-sure-if-i-even-like-this-pic.

LINKU?

It looks better in RL. OTL

I'm out, kaysies~


Larf~
 ~Fogo
 

Et aujour'dui je suis fatigue. mon francais est horrifique. THAT IS ALL. THANK YOU.


OTL

MOOD~  Sleepy, creative~
INTAKE~  Green tea
MUSIC~   Lady Gaga - Paparazzi

Alright, so I'm probably never going to actually put this on the web, but...
I was just working on a website because I was bored. And my HTML skills are kaput as of late, so sneakypeak, anyone?

Please click to enlarge! ....oi  that sounded wrong OTL

It seems I'm the only person in the world who likes that picture. I miss those flowers. I can't even remember where I got them.

But, I was trying to see which font color showed up the best--? I'm probably going to change the picture, just for better compatibility, but I haven't quite given up yet. Love coding HTML, by the way. I've gotten major sarky at it but ohayoooooo~~~
O3O
I know it kind of looks ugly right now, but I'll fix it up a bit. If I intend to upload it, of course. How I wish I had my own computer. My dad texted me if i wanted the new mario game for the wii (wtf) I should've said i would look it up but my computer crashed could you buy me a new one. a sparkly one.
He'd kill me OTL i feel so bad for taking advantage of people like that.

uuugh I'm so glad today is over, anyhow!

shit son i better be paid 400 freaking bucks. I MEAN HONESTLY  [ / random rage ]

I'm tired of everyone thinking it's alright to ruin my peace. I just wish i could leave somewhere far far far away from civilization (well, fully stocked, of course), so that I can just live out my life unbothered. Just sit under my tree and write poetry all day. OKAY? WHY DOES IT MATTER WHETHER OR NOT I KNOW WHO IVAN THE GREAT OR IVAN THE TERRIBLE IS---FFFFF FINE OKAY I WANT MY WIRELESS INTERNET WITH ME AND THATS IT. NO ONE ELSE DDDDDD8!!!!!!

just dont take my hetalia away OTL

ffff

*slaps self*


That raging pretty much explains my whole day.


Ashley keeps nagging me to text her back.
OH GEEZ. YEAH after I finally got home and charged my phone so that it would actually turn on, I heard my text message chime like 80 times. IT WAS ONLY OFF FOR 7 HOURS! it's not like I'm a lawyer or someone important. I wish I was a queen. 
For some reason that just made me break out into a fit of giggling.
OTL I am...losing my mind.


*whacks her audience with Oglethor* STOP STARING D8!
I'm sorry. I'm just so...so tiredddddd~ I can't make up my mind when I'm tired. my thoughts are like on crack and a whole bunch of other stuff or something. OTL OTL I apologize in advance for all the confuzzlation this post is going to cause.



I...I just read a Degrassi-fied Hetalia fanfiction while listening to Lady Gaga.
This is the end of me.
//HEADDESK//






papa-paparazz-*KICKED*












haaaaasdlfkjds;alfjkdsl;akjf;sdlakjfl;sdajfl;ksdjal;fkjdsal;fjksal;fjdsaklfj*falls over dead*

for reeeaaaal~?









ALSO, you guys, picture tiems not done.
THIS
is what a working computer looks like.

(DONT DOWNLOAD THAT VISTA THEME PACK. FOR REALS. COMPUTER IN ITS LAST WORKING DAYS RIGHT THERE.)
Well, after I got rid of the business in the picture above, it was running really well o__O it was like fast and 'oya i can do this lawl~ ilu owner~ o3o'  and then it had to update before it shut down so I was all kaaaay~
and theeeen~
BLUE SCREEN OF DEEEEEEEAAAAAAAATH!~
So that's how it went.

*cough* VODKAAAAAAA!!!!!!! [ / end hetalia fangirlism]





.005


I can't understand
Upon my ascendence
With burning ashes enveloped
The actuality in an existence
Only to be stricken
Along grief, therein inevitable


Guidelines and butterflies alike
Fluttering, dancing --
Without a blindfold, it's only then I stumble
These walls that tear my palms apart
Are slowly closing in on me
Broken rib by broken rib
And ushering forth beneath my words


I'd want to stay here, immobile
Praying, unable to breathe


Trace your steps, because I led you astray
Claw at your throat, because it's the only way
I can escape this nightmare
Trial after trial, hardship dueled by crisis
Grace manifested according to harmony
And like the monster I am
I'll entangle you with thorns
Until the sky blazes
We are the same and yet
I am the one who struggled;
Ripped my heart open in misery
Only to achieve nothing

.004




'Tear your music score apart
When nothing else fails
Your symphony lasted an infinity
But it has only fallen
On deaf ears


The clouds above wreak havoc
With murmuring a promise of defeat
The wind apart from all I've been taught
Treats me as if we're strangers


My shadow seems contorted
Through the haze of her fury
Filtering through, skipping the lines
Of hands that pull her hair


Undoubtedly so, yet withering into nothing
I cannot cast this aside as my vengeance
This atmosphere is frozen solid
In an attempt to halt the merciless time
I've balanced the universe into halves
And ripped through the stars after those who
Conceitedly, falsely, haughtily --
Find true happiness in this state of corruption'

.003

Beyond this agony
Angels are flying
Singing among the ruins

I'll wave off my indifference
And feign this 'simplicity'
Only when the chapter's bled through
Does my hourglass shatter again
In enlightenment, we serve your heart
Decaying in a forsaken fantasy
But with their happiness
As an excuse for those they've slain

Count down to your immortality
Until both your arms are red
Strike the opposers with hypocrisy
Because without your beliefs
You are weak
The sun sets to your awakening
Devour me if I taunt you
Embrace me with your toxic lies
So I may forget this 'everything'.



I finally wrote a poem :D
I need to find .002
I think it might be on my deviantart account...
uru~

And I think this will do. The scrollbar sure is tiny ;O


~Love
Fogo~

MOOD~  Sleepy, hungry
INTAKE~  Peach tea
MUSIC~   EPICA - The Obsessive Devotion

So like, I'm on a diet (again). And this time I'm srs this tiem! OTL


PREVIEW OF THE PIC I'VE BEEN WORKING ON! Currently inking it. It's the Silshuakte Overlord, AKA Queen Ensaoryuu's demon father 8D

Linku une
Linku deux

Chaaa, I took a break to go get the interwebs turned on LAWL;;;

IDK 'bout chu guys, but does anyone else just have one or two friends that have, like, no personality?
It's like they can laugh and stuff but theres...there's nothing there .-.
R-ROFL. it's crazy.

Apparently theres this mold problem going on :C I just scrubbed my windows bare with anti-fungus whatever stuff so they SHOULD be fine from now on teehee. That's just gross, right? why HERE? We're going to have to move anyway so I mean i guess it doesnt matter much anymoreTHIS IS ALL HER FAULT //shutupfogo

We looked at a few for rent places, but they were mobile homes. fiasdjlfldskajfljksda;lfkdsja i am NOT living in a mobile home, honestly. If I do, it has to be REALLY nice. And only if mom promises we can have comcast internet and shiney new cars. and a new computer. FFF she said once she got her bonus on the 20th she was going to buy my computer with it, but the other day she found out she's going to get fired RIGHT around that time. Evil, right? They fired this other girl who worked there right before she got her review.
Soooo! Lots of fun stuff going on right now. ermmmmm.........

I can't do anything without getting interrupted :C


~bokky

MOOD~  Sleepy, slightly creative
INTAKE~  Water (so dehydrated @3@)
MUSIC~   Aya Hirano - God Knows...

I think I got the sudden urge to post to my blog but now I don't want to. I'll just give you a very brief oopdate, kaysies?

Hetalia Kink Meme on Livejournal is rocking my world while Hetalia is too busy coming out with more episodes. It's absolutely awesome. Stupid Fanfiction.net

I've had a LOT of pizza within this past year. And, as it turns out, as 2009 started out a fabulous year, it slowly came to a screeching, traumatizing hault. I want to gouge someone's eyeballs out.

:3

I don't know about you guys but I was really psyched about turning 16 -- which wasn't really disappointing, because some of the awkwardness I had when I was 15 went away, and I do feel a bit better than I did. I'm afraid in my preteens I alienated some people, though, and I don't think I'm going to be able to fix that o__O; sooooo....no friends for meeee!

Hmmmmm~


OH! I was looking through pictures of me when I was younger and I noticed the beginning of the family cowlick. you know, in my hair. .____. that everyone in my family has from my mom's side. We must all have hair that grew in the same pattern or something because it's crazy. I want my bangs to lay straight, not have the right side of them loop :C
Nevertheless i still roll out of bed and show up everywhere without even touching a brush. Which is lovely, but also just proves my laziness.
But I also can't straighten my hair or curl it or anything. I just can't. I don't have that kind of...eughh just the thought of having to mess with my hair kills me OAO
My hair is so straight. It won't curl, it wont. It also won't stay straight either, because you can iron that cowlick flat and it'll still pop back up like it's a brand new day. FFFFFFFFFFFF
*Goes to fangirl over Russia*
S-Switzerland is really pretty too....you guys....I'm Swiss as well :D
Irish, Swiss, French, English, Dutch, German, Scottish, Swedish, Icelandic, Norwegian, Danish, aaaand....
What else am I? I forgot. I feel like I'm missing one :C
OH. I'm also Native American but you can't tell. My family got around, ikr. My mom's grandparents had real native american-y looking faces though, and they were kinda dark-skinned too, so theres your proof.
I'M ALSO AMERICAN LAWL THATS THE MOST OBVIOUS.
*headdesk*
And Finnish! I forgot! yeah, Finnish too.

OH. BRIEF.
snap.
You guys know i can't do brief ;A;

Today was really pretty. It was cold and rainy and the clouds looked really ominous. I wanted to IDK pretend to be Victorian or something ROFL;;;; I need that dress right. Which takes me to when I was watching A Series of Unfortunate Events the other day and I was reminded of how beautifully done that entire movie was. The style of it was really unique and just aahhh~~~ That's the kind of world I daydream about being in.
When I'm not day dreaming about people who have long pointy ears and are 6'3 and are insanely powerful and pretty because they're half demo-*bombed*
but yeah remind me to read those books will you.

ehhhhh..........................................

*slides out of scene*

Love~
 ~ Arekkusuu

MOOD~  Numb? Spectacular?
INTAKE~  Coffee
MUSIC~   S.H.E - Tong Kuai

I'm sitting outside on my front porch. No more bugs, 'cause it's winter! ROFL! so happy. Side porch had bees, back porch had bees, and then front porch had walking sticks and a variety of all the ickies. But they DIIIIED~~!
My fingers are numb and it makes it kind of difficult to type, and i think my arms and legs are numb too, but I really like it. I like feeling numb. It makes me happy on the inside. Euphoric almost. Like I have no emotion~ no worries~ no fd;jasklfl;dkjas. Just numb. And happy. I love winter.
Also being able to see my breath makes me remember I'm a human. With a body temperature and a heart. :/ It's easy for me to forget.
I babysat this morning, from 7:30 AM to 11:45 AM. They were really good, so it was mostly just entertaining lawl. I wonder if she's gonna pay me again. It's nice that she needs me to babysit because my mom was all
"We have to move. Unless I don't know, you get a job or Sam gets a raise..."
fldajf;ldkasj;fkldsaj Elyse pays well ;A;  but geez. We are so poor.
And what she pays me is like the equivalent to having a job while under 18, right? You can only work time, and she'll pay me like 100 a week, so it's all good, right? I don't know @_______@;
ROFLMAO this song. "Fast and furioooooous~!"
I need to do that to one of my asian friends just to get them mad.
Oh, did any of you know that the East End Cafe is really prejudiced? Yeaaah they wouldn't even serve this one black guy. OTL scary. I wonder what it'd be like if they were prejudiced against redheads.
They can't do that to redheads though because they know a bunch of really tall Viking people would come and yeah they'd be dead. Red heads are called hot tempered for a reason, right :|

PS. I hate men as well. I can't stand them. They make me sick. That's why I make them gay. : D but honestly. I think my mentality will seriously save me from being a tard like my older sisters.

Or like most of the girls between the age group of 13 - 36.

Wakaranai EINSAMKEIT! tsukete hoshiii~  I love Germany. And Russi-WHY DO I LIKE ALL THE BIG TOUGH GUYS?
I'm marrying an anime guy. Just FYI. LMAO speaking of being the golden child right.
Ermmm so moving on?

I need to draw more fanart. I honestly need to just lock myself in a blank room and draw like a million pictures. I would so draw a lot more if I wasn't so lazy. I have essays to write and exams to take and books / meetings i have to study for. I can't help but think of all that while I'm drawing or writing. fl;asdjfdas I need help.
Someone just like, sit on my back and stay there until I draw at least 5 fanarts and 10 OCs.
;w;

~Bokky