ROFL i love Kuroshitsuji. Remind me to get some Kuroshitsuji stuffs while I'm on a spree, kaysies?

People were talking about 'eating' and how many different meanings it could have in the manga, in a forum on Mangafox. I generally think Sebastian means 'eat his soul', because he's a demon...But people said it could mean rape too xD so we'll...er...see~ I really hope it ends differently from the Anime, because I really didn't like the anime. It was too slutty and ended badly with lots of plot holes. If it ended my way they would fall in love and Sebastian wouldn't want to eat Ciel and they could have babies :C

(MEN CAN TTLY HAVE BABIES RIGHT)

I think i've blogged like three times today. Except I didn't post one draft. Yeah...I highly doubt I'm going to post that one anyway, I might as well just delete it. I wonder what I'm going to do with all my yuri stories :/

N-NOT THAT THERES MORE THAN ONE OTL

I ONLY HAVE ONE I PROMISE OTL OTL OTL OTL

its not like i'm a faggot

But I still haven't finished that last bit. I suppose I should, just so I can feel better about myself. I never finish anything except exams, and even then I whine about it. I just want to drink coffee all day and draw out bishounen like a good fangirl fufufufu ~ ;3; neeee~ why did spell check underline the L and I in 'like'?

It doesn't likeeee likkeeeee TAT''''

orz

"You shudder every time you hear the name "Russia" or "Ivan" and quickly glance over your shoulder...just in case". NO, I HAPPILY LOOK OVER MY SHOULDER.

THAT'D BE SO EASY BAWWW.

......

*grabby hands* I want some more mangaaaaa~~~~!!!! I've already read Hetalia and Kuroshitsuji and theres no more to reeeeead. I suppose I could go watch Jigoku Shoujo or Ergo Proxy, but I lose interest real easily with shows and movies...even with DBZ. I write essays while I watch DBZ so I can pay attention

(that totally made a lot of sense amirite TEEHEE 8"D)

I just took the last bag of peach tea T^T I'm running out of my favorite teeeas. I think my Jasmine tea has finally expired, too, since when I bought it, it was already a year old. kolkolkol~ *headdesk*

I think I might have shampooed my hair 3 times in the shower L-LOL. Once more than usual is okay, right? It's MY hair afterall, it gets oily after like three minutes of being dry so I don't think it'd hurt it. My hair is pretty much invincible, in fact. It and its cowlick. We ish unbeatable. O3O

*SLAPPED*

OH SNAP. Okay. That's it. I'm getting a pack of sticky tabs. I just can't remember anything anymore. I need to START MY MANGA already. I-I think it's done evolving enough for now, anyway, and plus Hidekaz's style changed a bit as his manga went on. 'cause 'cause Russia had STOPTALKINGABOUTAPH

*sigh*

Just remind me, okay?

chyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~aaaaa

OH. I also need to have Kita over semi-soon, because we really need to make some more Kitaboko videos. Our channel is looking kind of sad lately ;w; and I don't think the Youtubers have seen my new haircut, either. Anyway, if nothing else we could always do another lipsyncing video xD those are...well, they're entertaining to us. AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS, RIGHT? ;alkjdf well atleast i got good reviews from SOME of my friends *cuts*

Or something cute like a spinoff of communitychannel.

Iwas reading this list of 'you know your obsessed with Hetalia when...'

and I REALLY REALLY WANT TO DO THIS ONE

14. Whenever you see a fellow Hetalia fan, you shout, "Germaaaannnnyyyyy!" down the hallway.

I AM SO DOING THAT TO THE NEXT PERSON I SEE.

I'm sorry you guys put up with so much of my fangirling. I'll try to be serious.

It is 1:37 AM right now and I am about to go to sleep. Mom went out in service this morning without me and I felt kind of bad for not going with her. She said she had a good time though, and there wasn't any pressure since she doesn't like talking to people lol. She hasn't been getting super mad at me lately if I'm not going to a meeting or not going out in service, like she usually is. I guess she's just trying to see if I'm doing this all on my own, or just because she is. I've realized this a few days ago, but I wish I hadn't become a Publisher so young (12-13-ish). I've really really had no self-esteem, and I'm always super shy. I just think if I'd become a publisher later in my teens like 14 or 15, or maybe even earlier this year than it would'nt've taken me so long to advance. Because one of my friends, Rachel, told me as you get older you start to care less and less what people think, and I absolutely believe what she said is true. I don't care nearly as much what people thought about me as I did when I was younger.

Even if you look at me when I was 15, and look at me now...I've changed a lot. I re-read E-mails I sent to my friends last year and I just facepalm over the stupidity. I don't know how people couldn't give me my space when I was so blatantly insecure and over-sensitive. ^^; I guess it's too late, now, though.

I would tell you guys whats up with my family lately, but telling you guys would be like admitting it to myself, which I haven't done quite yet. I've been ignoring it this entire time, wishing I could just urge it out of existence, out of knowledge; make it disappear. It really hurts to think about it, honestly. It makes my entire world feel unstable, like I don't have anyone to protect me or that people I know are going to just disappear out of my life forever. I guess when it comes down to it, when I think of the things I'm afraid of most, I've never ever considered 'being alone or abandoned' as  something I'm afraid of. I think, "Hey, it's not bad. I like being alone. I'm almost always alone." ...but that's with knowing that mom's going to come home at the end of the day, and Sam is right in the other room.

Without that, I'm not sure what...I don't know. I don't think I could survive. I don't have anyone. I have my evil, satanic dad and my aunts that are just like him, and my sister and her boyfriend who are dirt poor and live with his parents. I almost feel superstitious with the things I do, like making sure to say 'i love you' back, or spending more time with my family when I could be off holed up in my room. I hate to admit that I'm terrified of losing my family, because even now, you can tell that I've tried so hard to be a cold, indifferent person all up till now, when we should be showing 'a genuine interest' in people. But I've said this before, when I look in the mirror, I don't really see a human.

Ahhh another thing, I was over at my dad's house for a little bit later this past week because he was out of town for his job, and he wanted us to house-sit a bit. So that's why, if you got any really strange texts from me. I can talk about my current house have something hanging over it, but it's nothing compared to my old house. I don't know, just the scent makes my stomach lurch.

But apparently for you weaklings, talking about my family life makes you all very uncomfortable because your thoughts seem unfazable. The truth is, when people say they've been in an abusive relationship, whether it be as a couple or as relatives, no matter what, everyone will try to find physical evidence before they will believe it. And I have no evidence for you, so remember that before you go and tell me "Your dad's comments at the meetings are really good!" because he can go and beat up his kids and wife and then give the best talk you have ever heard in your life.

One last stab. "Ohhhh your parents are divorced! THAT'S BAAAAADDD!!! BAD PERSOOOOON!!! you're the evil one for calling for a divorce!"

thats honestly your problem if you think we're evil. :D let's let someone far bigger than us make the decision, shall we?