MOOD~  Musical, epic (LOL)
INTAKE~  Coffee
MUSIC~  Epica - Kingdom Of Heaven

Hi! I've calmed down a bit, so here's an update that actually makes sense.


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The truth lingers quietly
Sprouting from the rotten floorboards
Listening to you deny your fantasies
While the world you've created
Shines bright in a diseased reality
Marring your castle walls
And doubtlessly
You portray stubborness at its best

Beneath the ice, above the broken
The dull cry of salvation flutters
Just out of reach, relentlessly paining
Those who can't admit error
Let us be blindfolded, because that is
All we are ever good for
Gag us, because
Our words tear even ourselves apart

Personally, we conduct a cacophony
Of a bloody ending lasting for an eternity
Our lives set alight, screaming our sins
As roses bloom golden
And the sky presses down on us
Just in case, I've written in vain
Because only my hopes could be forgotten
In seconds after our last confinement.
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There's another. I know, my poetry all sounds the same :/ I just feel sappy if I write about love (i don't have any of that stuff, anyway), vulgar if I write something angry and revenge-y, or anti-christian if its a bit too...vivid.
I was planning on changing my style up a bit, so we'll see how that goes, ne?

Holy crap this coffee is good. Of course everything tastes better at nearly 3AM. Everything sounds better, too. It's like you're immediately hyper-sensitive if you stay up after your bedtime xD normal people! I feel awesome. I used to stay up till 6AM every single night, but now I'm...old. Just old. In 4 years I'll be 20. I feel like a preteen instead of a middle/late teen. This is so strange. Where did my years go?
HONESTLY?

I want them back k. I hate change. I hate it. I mean, new music and trying a different style is okay, but major changes like moving out or getting a job makes me really really nervous and pessimistic. I have to take deep breaths and drink green tea and stuff. I hate it xD

A few minutes ago sam texted me, okay this is what happened.
Sam: Hey!
Fogo: *doesn't reply. too busy drawing*
Sam: I ran over a dog today
Fogo: What?
Sam: Gotcha! I hate it when you ignore me.
Fogo: *ignores her*

SHE ASKED FOR IT. That was mean. She never has anything to talk about anyway, she's just bored at work. .___. I feel bad for that imaginary dog she hit.

AND ASHLEY STOP TEXTING ME AT 6AM LKFDJSA;FLKJDAS;FKLDJSA;FLKSDJA
OH MY GOD. LIKE SERIOUSLY. IT IS LIKE 6 DEGREES AND YOU WANT ME TO GET UP AND GET MY CELLPHONE just so you can tell me you're sick and you don't have school today. it makes me want to cry.

O and I'ma brag about LMAO Lady Gaga. I like free too. OH wait. Yeah
I was gonna brag about how good of a cook my mom is. She made hamburger soup and fruit salad today lfkdaj;fa
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in that order. it's awesomenesssness
She got the fruit salad recipe from a Pakistani doctor she worked with, and apparently they gave it to the people who'd been out in the desert who're dehydrated, because it's really hydrating. It has orange juice in it.
And okay no one can deny her soup tops everything else. Only thing is I'm going to gain so much weight from all this OTL OTL OTL OTL and those two cakes in there, and that turkey.
I was talking about losing weight, earlier, because I was expaining my costume to mom and I said "I have to lose weight to wear a skirt like that though because my legs are gbsgbsbgsbgs" and she was all "You can wear a skirt like that no matter what you look like! D8!" and so after all this food is gone......
I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do. This sucks. This coffee is really good. Hey i used sweetener, does that count?
I wish I had more self-discipline. I can do the chores on my own, and my schoolwork, but everything else is kind of...wonky. You can tell too, the house will be clean and my room will be a wreck x"D
I just avoid the Wrath of Mom, I think.
Hmm...

OH! I have 100$ saved up for the anime con so far! yaaay! Way better than last time, I only had 15$ after I paid to get in, and this time mom said she'd pay for me to get in, and I'd cover whatever I wanted. This is awesoooome! I'm so proud of me. Good job Fogo.


Anyhoodles. Marukaite Chikyuu. It was cold today ne. I wish I had more warm clothes OTL I'm sleeping with like 4 blankets yo. it aint nice.

Aaaaaand bad picture is bad, but heres what I've done on I'm-not-actually-sure-if-i-even-like-this-pic.

LINKU?

It looks better in RL. OTL

I'm out, kaysies~


Larf~
 ~Fogo